I’m honestly sitting in bed, trying so hard to choke back the tears. I just want to scream and cry and shout. I fucking hate this, I fucking hate myself for never being good enough at anything. Now I am crying. Fuck. I just don’t know what to do any more you guys, I really don’t. I’m at a loss in my life and I can’t do it any more, it fucking hurts to breathe. It hurts to go to sleep at night knowing I’m going to wake up in the morning. I want it to be over.